everything is just not the same anymore .
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when we jus started going steady , you look at us . you will feel tht we are happy having fun with each other , we don quarrel , not even argue .
but when you look at us now , we are jus arguing and you will see both of our faces '
i don want to quarrel anymore . i don wan to be scolded anymore . i don wan to push you away anymore . i don want to shout at you anymore . i don wan to be shouted at anymore . i don wan to see your face 'black' anymore . i don wan to give you attitude anymore . i don wan to roll eyes at you anymore . i don wan to think negatively anymore . i don wan to be irritating anymore . i don wan to change to be emo anymore . i don wan to think negatively anymore . i don wan to argue with you anymore . i don wan to be the worst girlfriend on earth anymore . i don wan to let you go ....... i don want to ):
you get irritated by me in every lill ways .
its jus not easy to please you , same to me .
i know its really difficult to be my boyfriend .
don tell me you regretted going steady with me .
becos i nvr did .
im irritating in any ways and i can annoy you jus by asking you a question .
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i understand tht dota is smth you enjoy doing .
so there is no way i can stop you from dota-ing so i actually have this intention to learn dota so i can make both us happier .but im jus soo stupid & irritating tht small things like dota i also cannot handle .
so there is times i wonder why would you even wan to stead with me ?
is it becos the time given to both of us to consider was too little or is becos im the one who have change .
even if i did , i don think i've completely change into another person . or have i ?
questions keep poping out and obviously there is times tht i get so confused tht i will make everything look so complicated .
but sometimes its really this complicating .
there is always a solution to every problem .
now i've found the solution , im gonna work with it !
today is the last day of 2008 , let all the painstaking memories from the begining go and lead a new life from tmrw onwards .
let 2009 be the year to let you change into a new person .
may all happiness be multiplied among everybody !
for my new year resolution .
study hard & learn t behave myself , to be more sensible & go through all the obstacles with my dearest boyfriend , bestfriend , girlfriend & goodfriends .
to be completely attitude-less . (what a word ) !
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im gonna be the girl you first fell in-love with (everything will be back to normal isnt it ? )
now you may not be the guy i first fell in - love with but its ohky .
i'll still love you as much & i'll still remain as the sanpart liping .
i may not be the prettiest girl in the whole wide world , i may not be the sweeetest girl on earth , i may not have the best grades in school . i may not provide you with all the love , i may not be tht ' perfect ' girl . but im still klp .
im still tht girl you love right dearie ?
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i will nvr let go of you dearie .
i will hold on to you tightly forever (:
i love you JEREMY GOH JUN HAO .
♥